I was fitted for a customized "cast" which will hold my lower legs and feet in position during each radiation session. I received 3 tattoo marks to aid in positioning the radiation beam. I also had a CT scan and MRI.
During the MRI, which took about 15 minutes, I had to lay flat on my back and not move. This position put pressure on my lower back and pelvis; very uncomfortable. What a challenge to my idol of comfort and control. Who is really in charge? This gave me the opportunity to surrender my lower back and pelvis to Jesus as Owner and my Good Shepherd. I am learning deeper levels of surrender of various specific parts of my body through desperate need.
I am learning that since God is both Creator and Owner of my body, he allows this particular pressure, which I can’t manage or control, to check the level of my surrender. You might say it’s like he is taking my temperature as he checks my heart attitude once again.
As you may know, the MRI is extremely noisy even with ear muffs in place. I am so thankful for having memorized large chunks of Ephesians which I prayed back to God in the MRI tunnel.
The time went quickly as I rested in the comforting arms of Jesus. I learned in a new way:
As I dwell in the shelter of the Most High I will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "You are my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
[Psalm 91:1-2 personalized]
THE FUTURE: In 2-3 weeks I will be scheduled for daily radiation.
Thank each of you again for supporting Anne and me in prayer as we wait for the scheduling phone call.
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Dear Tom,
We will praying for you. THank you for sharing this. We also want to thank you and Anne for the time and encouragement that you gave yesterday to Ed, me and our cousin Ted. Jean C.
Tom...we are praying for you. It is remarkable how God customizes suffering for each of us.
Paul Miller
Tom and Anne,
A blog is a great way to keep us all updated with your progress so we can pray. Sounds like you are listening and praying and making wise decisions.
Blessings,
karen
Dear Tom and Anne,
Thank you for sharing so openly and humbly what God is doing in you in this time. It is so good to be reminded how near God is in the hard things we face. I hope I learn to surrender and trust him as you have. Praying for grace upon grace, whatever that looks like in this season. With you, Kristen Getz
I will be praying for you both. It is a huge encouragement to hear what God is teaching you. Something I really need. Thank you for sharing your insights into Psalm 91. I plan to meditate on it this week.
Great to see you last night!
Kathy
Tom,
Thanks for keeping us updated. I'll keep you and Anne in my prayers.
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