As I wait

Tuesday, January 13 2009

As I await the start of my Prostate Cancer radiation, I am praising God for his many benefits to Anne and me.
Consider with me those listed in Psalm 103 [personalized]

2 Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits--
3 who forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases, 4 who redeems my life from the pit and crowns me with love and compassion, 5 who satisfies my desires with good things so that my youth is renewed like the eagle's.

8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. 9 He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; 10 he does not treat me as my sins deserve or repay me according to my iniquities. 11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for me as I learn to fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed my transgressions from me.

What does it mean for me to FEAR GOD?

In Genesis Chapter 22 God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son, his only son, Isaac. Abraham immediately obeyed. He was about to slay Isaac: 11 But the angel of the LORD called out to him from heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!" "Here I am," he replied. 12 "Do not lay a hand on the boy," he said. "Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son." 13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son.

As Abraham yielded, surrendered his RIGHT [Isaac alive and well] to God, I am also to yield my PERSONAL RIGHTS to God. Mine revolve around Comfort, Convenience and Control.
As I go down this road of Prostate Cancer Radiation, God will continue to test the quality and depth of my surrender to him. After all, God owns everything and controls everything. I know that in my head. But God is going for my heart.

I need to develop deeper levels of trust in the days ahead.

Please pray for my heart attitudes that the Fruit of God’s Spirit will be increasing evident in my life.