God is in the Details

Today, February 2nd, was my first Prostate Cancer Radiation treatment.

Last night I couldn’t get to sleep. So I got up and read the first part of Psalm 1.

Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. 2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. 3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.

As I delighted in my Father and meditated on these words, I was all too aware of my need to again surrender my life and heart attitudes to God. Also I was well aware of my desire for Comfort, Convenience and Control. I surrendered control of all aspects of this first treatment session.

This morning at 9 am I checked in at Rosenfeld Cancer Center and then my cell phone rang. The nurse told me that the MACHINE was down for repair and asked me to wait. Soon she came out and asked me if I could return later in the day. She would call me. I agreed. I commented to her that God is in charge, I certainly am not.

I was amazed that my heart did not react, but was at peace in spite of this delay. I am so thankful that God is making me aware of the Fruit of His Spirit in my heart [or should I say the lack of it].

I learned a great lesson [relearned a great lesson]. I cannot manage my life and I must surrender and trust God minute by minute.

Tomorrow, Tuesday the 3rd, I will have another opportunity to further trust God in the details.